Saturday, April 17, 2021

Friday, April 16, 2021

Blue birds...


She passed the first
covid test so we can
take her for the heart
catheterization this

Staying positive but
still keeping my
fingers crossed.

Saturday, April 10, 2021

My brain is tired...

 ...there's a clenched fist in my chest and my nerves
are as strained as catgut on a guitar (piano? violin? whatev).

I've been spoiled during the past year. It was February 2020
since Carol's last hospital stay and considering the Covid crap,
we have been very lucky. And very careful.

She got her second vaccination today with no side effects at all
and Ann and I are getting our second vaccination on the 19th.

So why would I be at all stressed?
In the last couple weeks she's been scheduled for multiple
procedures and tests that make me worry. One procedure is a
heart catheterization and another involves removing a large
growth on her scalp. And then the heart doctor decided just
the other day that he wants some kind of lung test done.
All of these procedures require blood work and a Covid test.
ALL of this rigamarole is scheduled during the next two weeks.

The only doctor who will allow me to go with her to her
appointments is the surgeon. The other doctors follow Covid
restrictions that only allows the patient in the facility unless the
patient needs physical help or help communicating.

So, I have to rely on Carol to fill me in and unfortunately she
often gets confused about what they're telling her. And she will
not question anything she's told when it comes from any person
she considers to be an authority. Well, you probably know that
I ask questions about everything. I don't like not knowing
especially when it comes to health situations.

I don't think anyone else worries because they know I will.
Does that sound like "poor me" whining?

So guess where I spent a couple of hours on Friday?

A funeral home.

Nobody died. This was for me.
Did the pre-planning thing for a simple cremation, no viewing,
no service. Even picked out a headstone. All that's left is to
talk to the cemetery people.

I feel so much better.

Friday, April 02, 2021

It's early...



Beiber did his job well. 12 Ks in 6 innings.
Still lost 3-2 even after Roberto Perez hit a 2-run homer.
The weather didn't help.


Friday, March 19, 2021

One of a kind...


“Flannery O’Connor knew that not everyone would or could understand her work. She once received a letter from someone who told her that her book left a bad taste in her mouth. O’Connor wrote back, “You weren’t supposed to eat it.””

Flannery O’Connor


Monday, March 15, 2021

Saturday, March 06, 2021

Apparently, it's happened before...

 “It was one of those March days when the sun shines hot and the wind blows cold: when it is summer in the light, and winter in the shade.”
Charles Dickens, Great Expectations 

That's how it's been here, lately.
Quite lovely.

I should learn to appreciate any good while it's here,
but I keep thinking about "March comes in like a lion
and goes out like a lamb...or...comes in like a lamb and
goes out like a lion."

Either way, I'm not in charge of the weather.
I'll keep a snow shovel handy next to my sunglasses.

Saturday, February 20, 2021

Sunday, February 14, 2021

Wednesday, February 10, 2021

ow. ow. ow...

 I fell.

Snow + Ice + Steps = FWOOOOMP.

When I landed, I was afraid to move 'cuz you know
women of a certain age have a tendency to have brittle bones.
I landed so hard that my head was rattled but it was my
left butt cheek and my tailbone that took the brunt.
After a minute I very carefully maneuvered myself up
on my knees and then took another minute to stand.

I was able to clean off the steps and sidewalk and gingerly
let myself back into the house before I started shaking.
That was four nights ago and my tailbone is still
screaming at me.

I want it to stop snowing now.

Monday, January 18, 2021

I need a shrink...

I want to scream
long and loud
but that isn't
a nice thing to do.
You didn't know
you're talking to
Most Courteous
in the class of 1969
did you?
I wanted to be
Best Dressed.

Friday, January 08, 2021

Two heartbreaks in one...

We all knew it was going to happen but sending
Carlos Carrasco along with Lindor to NYM is
going to hurt for a long time.


Saturday, January 02, 2021

winter color...


look close. it is there.
it doesn't care if it's seen.
you should. every day.