someone said life after death
Saturday, April 17, 2021
Friday, April 16, 2021
Saturday, April 10, 2021
...there's a clenched fist in my chest and my nerves
are as strained as catgut on a guitar (piano? violin? whatev).
I've been spoiled during the past year. It was February 2020
since Carol's last hospital stay and considering the Covid crap,
we have been very lucky. And very careful.
She got her second vaccination today with no side effects at all
and Ann and I are getting our second vaccination on the 19th.
So why would I be at all stressed?
In the last couple weeks she's been scheduled for multiple
procedures and tests that make me worry. One procedure is a
heart catheterization and another involves removing a large
growth on her scalp. And then the heart doctor decided just
the other day that he wants some kind of lung test done.
All of these procedures require blood work and a Covid test.
ALL of this rigamarole is scheduled during the next two weeks.
The only doctor who will allow me to go with her to her
appointments is the surgeon. The other doctors follow Covid
restrictions that only allows the patient in the facility unless the
patient needs physical help or help communicating.
So, I have to rely on Carol to fill me in and unfortunately she
often gets confused about what they're telling her. And she will
not question anything she's told when it comes from any person
she considers to be an authority. Well, you probably know that
I ask questions about everything. I don't like not knowing
especially when it comes to health situations.
I don't think anyone else worries because they know I will.
Does that sound like "poor me" whining?
So guess where I spent a couple of hours on Friday?
A funeral home.
Nobody died. This was for me.
Did the pre-planning thing for a simple cremation, no viewing,
no service. Even picked out a headstone. All that's left is to
talk to the cemetery people.
I feel so much better.
Friday, April 02, 2021
Friday, March 19, 2021
“Flannery O’Connor knew that not everyone would or could understand her work. She once received a letter from someone who told her that her book left a bad taste in her mouth. O’Connor wrote back, “You weren’t supposed to eat it.””
Monday, March 15, 2021
Saturday, March 06, 2021
Saturday, February 27, 2021
Thursday, February 25, 2021
Saturday, February 20, 2021
Tuesday, February 16, 2021
Sunday, February 14, 2021
Wednesday, February 10, 2021
Snow + Ice + Steps = FWOOOOMP.
When I landed, I was afraid to move 'cuz you know
women of a certain age have a tendency to have brittle bones.
I landed so hard that my head was rattled but it was my
left butt cheek and my tailbone that took the brunt.
After a minute I very carefully maneuvered myself up
on my knees and then took another minute to stand.
I was able to clean off the steps and sidewalk and gingerly
let myself back into the house before I started shaking.
That was four nights ago and my tailbone is still
screaming at me.
I want it to stop snowing now.