I love
all her books.
My new favorite.
My musings.........my thoughts.........my self
14 years is a long time
to be sick
tired
in pain
homebound for the most part
missing freedom
friends
family
afraid not to continue hoping
for healing
struggling every day
just to live
just to be.
she cries
my heart breaks.
I present myself
without any intention
of presenting myself
in any particular
recognizable way.
I want my words
to be in the light
myself in shadow.
if you are determined,
bound and determined,
to disregard
disrespect
dismiss
the life that you own,
get a room
far away
and write a long note
saying "sorry, I love you,
but I hate myself more."
dammit
you made a mess.