Long time ago...

do you
think about me
once in a while?
do you
remember what
we did
once in a while?
Our yesterday
is
a long time ago
but just as sweet
today.

 

Planning another funeral...

 Our youngest brother passed away this morning.

Cardiac arrest. He would've been 62 this November.

Our family keeps getting smaller. 

Am I boring you?...

 

I welcome
suggestions.

Live long and stumble...

 life now
is nothing
like it was then.
and neither
am I.

Be a dandelion...

 

Them vs Us...

We get stuck
more than
one way
being women
while you others
go and do
with rarely
a backward glance.
hardly remembering
us at all.
We remember you
and sigh.

         * 

...and then
we say goodnight
and go
our separate ways
again. 

         * 

never has been
never will be
stopped expecting
stopped looking
long ago. 

 

 

I just ain't feelin' it, friends...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Still here, still breathin'.
sometimes
that's all you get.
Want more?
check back
tomorrow. 

Unsure...

someday maybe there
might be a time when it all
will make sense again.

did it ever?
                                                                                                          

You're doing fine without me...

this is me,
not us,
being
the person
I want to be
should be
need to be. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Snot...

 

Don't do that...

You're hurting
yourself
when you blame
yourself
for someone else's
mistakes.

 

 

 

Remember and mourn...

 

Today's lesson...

 

I killed a squirrel...

 I didn't mean to.  

Ann and I were coming back
from Barnes&Noble this afternoon.
Busy city traffic.
I saw him in the middle of my lane.
I slowed down. He stopped and looked
up at me, I swear we made eye contact.
He started to continue across the lane
but he was moving very slowly and
awkwardly. Like something was wrong
with him. I moved my car a bit to the
right to give him plenty of room but

 he turned around and headed back
 toward the curb, slowly, and planted 
 himself directly in front of my tire.
 bump......bump. "Oh shit no!"

I've never killed anything in my life. Until today.
Maybe I should say a prayer.
Do squirrels have souls?

                                            

Peace in a valley...

 

              Somewhere
               if not now
               tomorrow.

   

Last one standing...

We can walk away from anyone
but ourselves.

How will you live with you?

 

(originally posted 2-28-07) 

 

To absent friends...

I hope that
when my time comes
I fight
the whole way
to hell
and back.