because of you
I am
not
alone.
My musings.........my thoughts.........my self
untitled...
hello. where did you
go. you were here
just a minute ago.
I blinked and breathed
and missed you leave.
hello. where did you
go.
I'll save your space
beside me. listen for
your laugh. re-welcome you
again. again.
hello.
where did you
go.
At the gym wearing a t-shirt that says:
God and I
don't always see
eye to eye.
Old woman points and screams "You're going to Hell!"
I say "I'll save you a seat."
She storms away heading for the exit.
The man she was with comes over and says "I apologize
for my wife. She isn't feeling well today."
I say "I'm sorry. I hope she feels better soon."
He says "I'm afraid she won't. Alzheimer's doesn't get better.
Excuse me. I need to go after her before she gets lost again."
Yes, I have loved,
still love, only one.
ever and always.
Even though it cannot
be complete, it is
real and true as it is.
Only the two of us
know it but hide it
even from each other.
Denying what should
be the best beautiful
life to have forever.
Forgive me
for loving you
more than I should.
I'm Chahlie.
Say it the way it looks. Chahhhlie. Got it? OK.
People think I'm pathetic.
Some people. Not all people. Only the ones who know me.
The rest of 'em? Welllll, they don't really count.
'Cause they don't know me. See?
Maybe, when this is over, you can tell me what you think.
Because by then you will know me.
Chahlie. That's me.
I don't do mucha nuthin'. 'Cause I don't have to or want to.
I slip-slide through the days without breakin' a sweat.
As it should be. For me.
Nuthin' but easy all day every day.
It's a sweet life if you can get it.
And I got it.
...to be continued. Maybe.
I liked my New Year post so much that I wanted to
leave it at the top. That's silly, though, isn't it?
We can't stay in one place, in one day, forever can we?
We are required to move on in life or we quit living, we die.
I'm not a fan of dying. I want to keep living.
Therefore, I will continue as I have been. Being me. Being here.
Probably not ready for everything that might happen but
willing to deal with all of it the best I am able.
This blog and the many wonderful people who have visited
here have been a true blessing and helped me get through
every day since January 2006. My heart aches for the people
who have gone for any reason. So many good, kind, warm souls.
I will continue to be grateful for all those who bless me with your
presence and your friendship.