It doesn't matter what I wish for him.
I have no control over where he is... or isn't... since he died.
Just the same as I had no control over where he was when
he was alive.
When I say "he", I mean his spirit, his soul, his mind, his heart...
whatever it is that makes up a person's complete essence, not the
personality or the body that is visible to others.
There is no way for one individual to know another's true essence.
Perhaps that is why communication and understanding
between people can be so very difficult.... "No, you don't understand!"
My essence is mine. Yours is yours. There may be shared similarities,
but the unique details of our individuality keep us from knowing all of
Those unique details create our own universe. The one in which we alone
exist during life, and after this life ends.
We struggle to understand, but it is beyond our reach because some of
their details are not part of us. That lack in understanding does not make
it a failure for us. It is an impossibility. We cannot know what we are not.
We can only work to see ourselves as we are, for we are... in our solitary
inner universe... the only one who is truly able to know us.
Wherever he is, it is still his world alone.