Sunday, March 16, 2014


Winter squalls into
Spring sunshine. One more beam than
yesterday. Beauty.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Too much gravity...

A little less and I'd still be perky.
All over.
Cheeks, boobs, butt. Upper arms.
Happy Birthday to me.
There will be no photos.

Are you well?

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Progress of sorts...

Platelet count is up to 69,000. Still not ideal.
The oncologists were concerned about postponing another
treatment so, it was decided to reduce the dose by 10%, hoping
that will allow her platelets to continue rebuilding.

Guessing. Hoping. So much for exact science.

She has a follow-up visit with her doctor in 10 days, unless we
notice unusual bruising or bleeding or her temperature spikes.
Then we head for the ER.

Anyway, I'm relieved for now. 

We're keeping alert for Winter's next (may it be the last) hurrah.
Predictions are freezing rain starting tonight and then mucho
snowflakes and wind tomorrow.
The excitement never ends.

Stay warm and dry, dear friends.

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

Blood platelet battle...

My sister was scheduled for chemo last week. No go.
Her platelet count was 61.
This week was 67 but still not good enough.
They want at least 75.
Re-scheduled for next week.

They said there is nothing she can do to bump up
her platelet count but, I'll be doing some research.

Her cancer is not gone and without treatment it
will grow.

This is making me nervous. 

I'm confused. Blood platelet numbers I found on the net
are nothing like what are listed above. What I found
range anywhere from 140,000 - 400,000 for normal to
under 20,000 seriously low.
61? 67? 75? WTF?
Her oncologist is out of town this week. Great.

Saturday, March 01, 2014


Today the sun shines
on brown grass that winter killed.
Tomorrow, more snow.

Sunday, January 26, 2014

Someone moved Ohio...

to the North Fucking Pole.

It's been snowing and blowing for three days, without a break,
until an hour ago. Looking at the sky I can see it will start
again soon. 

And, more sub-zero temps coming for the next two or three days.
Anything at or above freezing feels balmy.


I know, it's as bad or worse where you are but, I haven't
done any real whining in a while.

Still here, still breathin'.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

so far, so good...

Sister is handling the new chemo really well.
She's usually pretty tired for the balance of the week but a couple
of extra naps keeps her going. Other than that, the following two
weeks are pretty much normal. (She gets a dose every 3 weeks.)
Third treatment is this coming Tuesday. After the second
treatment, they finally noticed the cancer appeared to be 
shrinking. All we can do right now is wing it and hope for the best.

Summer is gone but the days continue to be beautiful.

Thank you all for your good wishes, prayers and thoughts.

Friday, August 09, 2013


Her oncologist saw a spot she didn't like. 
Biopsy came back positive.

The herceptin she's been on obviously isn't 
holding back the cancer. She starts chemo again
with a drug that was just released this year...TDM-1
Her first session is August 20.
She might also need more surgery.

Good news is that tests did not show the cancer 
spreading to her bones or other organs.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

computer go bye-bye...

I shouldn't complain, I guess. Bought it in 2004 for less than $300.

Even when there is a valid reason for change, I still rebel against.
Familiarity breeds comfort. But, isn't that one way abusers keep
their claws in the abused? Shame on me.

We were busy for a while organizing the annual family reunion.
It poured rain the whole day but we rent a nice community
building for the event, so we all stayed dry while sampling a
huge variety of food and visiting with many relatives.
My siblings and I get to run the show again next year and then
hand over the organizing to Uncle Paul's kids for their turn.

No idea how often I'll be back here. I didn't seem to miss blogging
like I thought I might when I was first computer-less.
Perhaps seven years is enough. Perhaps I'll have a brain spark
on occasion.Whatever.

I'm chipping away at my to-do list in my own time, as usual.
Life isn't bad.

Friday, June 21, 2013

words fail me...

Probably more accurate to say that
I'm failing the words.

I think I need to do something different.
Photos. Drawing. Crocheting. Volunteering.
My mind needs to be jarred into awareness.
Or, put to sleep permanently and stop wasting space.

Should have enough money saved to get an old,
high-mileage, cheap car...soon.
I really, really miss my independence and freedom.
A prisoner of necessity, I'm clawing at the walls.

I'm not giving up but don't expect much.