Monday, October 07, 2019

Life missed...

How cold
not the weather
but the soul
When the heart
doesn't breathe
When the eyes
don't feel.

Sunday, October 06, 2019

Better news...

My sister had an echo cardiogram on the 16th and a 
chemical stress test on the 20th of September.

No other doctor appointment was scheduled until Dec. 10.
That was entirely too long to wait for someone to
evaluate the test results and for her to not be taking
any kind of anti-cancer meds.

Why is it up to the patient/family to demand attention?

We went to her oncologist's office on the 20th to calmly
request that someone do something soon. Her doctor was
out of the country then, so she was given an appointment
for Oct.1, the day after her return. Fine.

Not surprisingly, the oncologist agreed with me about the
unacceptable delay. She reviewed the test results and we
were pleased to hear that my sister's heart function had
improved nicely and the stress test results were very good. 
The doctor determined Carol was strong enough to resume
her treatment of Herceptin and Tykerb. Immediately. 

The doctor's office then called the oncology cardiologist
office and got Carol an appointment for the next day.
He agreed with everything we were told by the oncologist.
He prescribed her carvedilol to support heart strength.

She started taking her Tykerb that day and is scheduled
for a Herceptin treatment this coming Tuesday.

The journey continues.

Saturday, September 21, 2019

a Chuckle...

for my bloggy friend Joe.


A woman was driving home after a day of shopping
when she saw an elderly woman walking on the side of the road. 
The woman decided to be a good Samaritan and offer the
elderly woman a ride. The elderly woman accepted the offer.

After a quiet minute, the elderly woman noticed a brown bag
on the floor by her feet. She asked the good Samaritan,
"What's in the bag?" and the good Samaritan said,
"It's a jug of wine I got for my husband."

After another quiet minute, the elderly woman said,
"Good trade".

Monday, September 16, 2019

Empty brain...

Except when I try to sleep.
Then it's in high gear overload
but nothing makes much sense.

There's the high school reunion coming up this month.
50 years. Yep. 1969. 
I'm not interested in going so I won't. 

Carol has an echo-cardiogram Monday morning.
They'll be looking for improvement in function. 
We'll be hoping.

I'll be looking forward to the predicted cooler
temperatures this week.

May soft breezes and sunshine find you today.
 

Friday, September 06, 2019

Send good thoughts...


Charles at Dustbury has been in an accident.


UPDATE: Sad news is that Charles died of his injuries.

Monday, September 02, 2019

Sunday, August 25, 2019

Damn speedbump...

My sister got some disturbing news.

After more than seven years of chemo, it's taking a toll
on her heart.  The last few eco-cardiograms have shown
a steady decrease in pumping efficiency. Her heart is
weak enough now that she has to stop all cancer meds.

They say the damage is reversible but only by stopping
the chemo until the heart has a chance to gain strength.
Problem is, there's no telling how long that will take.
The other problem is, without the chemo, the cancer
will start to spread. 

She has no other major side-effects, thankfully.
Her energy level is good and she does damn near
anything she wants to do... drive, housework, shopping, etc. 

She's been referred to a cardio oncologist for further
monitoring and to determine when her heart is strong
enough to resume taking the cancer meds that have kept
her alive and kicking but, in themselves, could do her in.
The options include going back on the same meds but in
lower doses or finding something else that keeps the cancer
from spreading and hopefully doing less damage to the
rest of her body. 

She's taking this pretty well right now but I am a 
full-blown basket case (inside). I have to maintain some
semblance of calm for her and the rest of the family.

Is speedbump one word or two? speed bump?
 

Saturday, August 17, 2019

Light summer read...





















This uniquely written autobiography is a fun read. 
Every chapter is a few pages about someone in his life
from Frank Sinatra to Cole Porter to MLK Jr. to
his parents to Lady Gaga to his wife. Forty-two in all. 
It also includes much of his artwork scattered throughout
the pages and lining the inside covers.
I highly recommend it. 
 

Saturday, August 03, 2019

Thursday, August 01, 2019

Indians' loss, Reds' gain...

And what does Cleveland get? A freak who licks
his bat and starts fights.
And they bring up a pitcher who hasn't pitched in two years.
Waste of time, waste of money, waste of oxygen, waste of baseballs. 












You will be missed, Trevor.

Thursday, July 18, 2019

Weather or not...


























Days and nights of drenching rain are being
traded for clear skies and extreme heat
through this weekend. I've never liked summer.

Thursday, July 11, 2019

It's official...

...we are old.  O.L.D. old.

We went out to dinner tonight. Bob Evans.

We were home by 5:00 p.m. 

The end is near.

Sunday, July 07, 2019

The only sport worth watching...






 This last photo is just to keep sending strength his way.
One of Cleveland's best and favorite pitchers recently
diagnosed with leukemia. Carlos Carrasco.

Saturday, June 01, 2019

Persistent Premonitions...

For weeks, I had a feeling something bad was going to happen.
It did, but could have been worse.

A couple weeks ago Carol went to church to help the ladies make
stuffed cabbage. About noon she called me... from the E.R.
She fainted and they called 911. I headed to the hospital.

They claimed x-rays showed results "were suspicious
for pneumonia". More tests, bloodwork and eight hours
waiting for a room, and they decided her hemoglobin had
dropped enough to cause the fainting. 

More tests. More bloodwork. More tests. More bloodwork.

Slightly anemic, malnurished (started losing weight during Lent)
and a referral to a G.I. doctor to check her liver (even though
they did a scan with no signs of cirrhosis or fatty liver.) 
Although chemo can take a toll on one's liver and she's been
taking a variety of those drugs for most of the last seven years
with no end in sight.
On the fourth day they discharged her.

She went for her Herceptin treatment this week and I asked
them to do bloodwork and everything checked out well.
Her weight has stabilized because she's eating as she should be.
Energy level is good again.
I hope the G.I. guy finds nothing to be concerned about.

Why don't I have an ulcer from worrying?
Must be all the garlic we Hungarians eat.
 

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

What?...

What is this bunk of
nothing that waits for eyes to
look at its nothing

and declare something
must surely be there only
because someone looks.
 

Sunday, April 21, 2019

Sunday, March 31, 2019

Freaky, freaky weather...

It was a lovely 60 degrees yesterday.
It is now almost 2 am and it is raining
AND snowing at the same time. I swear.

I had no idea it could do that.

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

itty-bitty FYI...

For anyone who was on the "Followers" list on
the sidebar, I deleted it. Nothing personal toward
anyone. Blogger messed with it and made it look ugly.
Plus, a lot of those followers and their blogs don't
exist anymore.

The blogs listed on my sidebar also include a rather
big batch of inactive blogs. Some of the authors have
died, some of the blogs have been deleted.
I guess it's acceptable to remove those blogs from the
list on the sidebar but... letting go can be difficult for me.
It may be silly, but it feels disloyal. Abandonment, of sorts.

When I moved from Florida, I lost/gave up a lot of things
that had a lot of meaning to me. A lot. It still hurts if I let
myself reflect on it. A huge failure on a long list of failures.

Anyway. Let's end on a more positive note, shall we?

I'm completely off insulin. Only using metformin for diabetes
control. Glucose levels are staying very stable with the
daily average 120 or lower, depending on what and how much
I eat, of course. A1c 5.6.... but the endo doc is concerned
about my levels of albumin and creatinin so he sent me to
a kidney specialist. Waiting on test results but I'm not
worrying. I feel good so I'm going with that for now.
Weight loss is slow but that's pretty much my own fault for
so rarely moving my ass this winter other than to shovel snow.
Still, almost 40 pounds gone.

Carol is doing well. She's into her second year of daily chemo
(Tykerb) and dealing with only minor side-effects. Hard to believe
that she first started chemo 7 years ago this month. Followed by
mastectomy and heavy radiation. I'm glad I was able to be
here for her. Plus the other siblings, too.

Long-awaited Spring is here today.
Yet another reason to be grateful.

 

Saturday, March 02, 2019

It happens every year...

"First the howling winds
awoke us
Then the rains came down
to soak us
Now, before the eye can
focus -
Crocus."

Lilja Rogers










 Spring springs eternal, my friends. Be patient.

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Another good book...














If history books were written like this when I
was in school, I would have paid more attention. 

Tomorrow's weather will make it a perfect day
to curl up with hot coffee , pillows and a warm blanket
and read. 

One of the benefits of being retired.

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Could be worse...

Akron -4, with windchill -25.
BUT...the sun is shining!

By the weekend, we are told by the weather wizards,
the world will be melting because the temps will be
close to 50. Holy Shit. and Yay.

In the meantime, I just keep reading.

I recently started a book on the history of pirates:













A christmas present from my sister, Ann. 

Stay warm, my friends.

Tuesday, January 22, 2019

Snowbound...

I have no idea what any official measure is but,
we had almost two feet of snow on our cars and
close to eighteen inches in the yard.
We haven't seen the pavement on our street since
Saturday morning.

Today is clear and sunny but still not warm enough
 to melt even one damn flake. I guess that will happen
soon, though, because we're supposed to get heavy
rain later today that will continue through tomorrow. 

Then the cold and snow come back this weekend. 

Not everyone hated it.




Wednesday, January 16, 2019

There will be whining...

It's time to sharpen the snow shovels and buy more salt.

The prediction is for major dumpage alllllll weekend. 













Maybe the prediction will be wrong.
Oh, well. It is winter in NE Ohio.

Monday, January 14, 2019

Elisson...

Gone much too soon.

A genius of many sorts.
They would've loved him on Monty Python.
There's no way to remember him other than fondly.