Sunday, October 22, 2006

Don't read this....

I saw a look on your face, as we were saying good-night, that made me stop and wonder. Or, was I hoping?

I could feel you looking at me before I turned to you.
I felt your eyes pulling me towards you.

Your face was soft, gentle, caring... and questioning.
You seemed to be focusing so very intently... on me.
You didn't move. And, neither did I.

I hesitated, then smiled at you.
Your gaze continued to absorb me.
I felt warm. I wanted to move closer. I didn't.

I wanted... but, I was gripped by fear.
Afraid of misunderstanding that look on your face.
Afraid of being rejected.
Looking foolish. Being embarrassed.

It had been a long day. Perhaps you were simply tired.

I said, "Goodnight.", turned and walked away.

Will I ever know what I really saw?

19 comments:

boneman said...

Funny, the coincidences that abound around us, eh?
Been confronted with a bit of reality of late that I wasn't sure about.
Still ain't.
Can't shake the past from its entrenchment, can't shake the fear, the pain.

Look right into that other face and watch as it fluctuates from caring to burning indictment.

Jean said...

Boneman - why does life always have so many questions... and never enough answers?

Aspergantus said...

The answers are in you. Every second of every day, our choices determine the reality stream that we travel in the space-time continuum. It truly is the butterfly effect. How do you think this person's life would have changed if she/he didn't question the moment and just went for it? My point is this; it doesn't matter because we will never know. Rejection is not necessarily a bad thing, but a mere reality check. "Ok, I interpreted this persons posturing incorrectly. Will I try it again? Hell yes?" Why? Because you will never know until you try.....

Excellent piece and very thought provoking...

Jean said...

Mick - Your excellent comment is just as thought provoking!

Thanks for being here!

K. D. Zu said...

Just saw Jack Nickalson in 'Somethings Gotta Give', with Diane Keaton.
Great movie. You have to never give up and hang on for the ride. But you have to get back in the saddle.

MrsJoseGoldbloom said...

Always be true to yourself, and never be afraid to go for what you want. Pearls of widom from my good ol Dad.

Jean said...

Larry - I saw that movie too... guess they wanted to say there is always hope.


Mrs JG - Wise words from Dad... always worth listening to!

Enemy of the Republic said...

Continuing the thread of answers, I think there are some things we will never know and some who have the ability to know them. Call that my own sense of how the spiritual realm works, but I think it all depends what we want the answers to. I know I'm getting a little weird here.

Valerie - Riding Solo said...

I just bomb ahead and run them off or freak them out or - get such a nice kiss...

I'm a "Go for IT!" woman.

Jean said...

EOTR - I know she wanted the right answer that night.

Valerie - somehow, that does not surprise me...lol. Wish I was better at it.

Valerie - Riding Solo said...

It backfires a lot, but when you land one he is afraid of no one!

Jean said...

Valerie - a man with no fear... sounds like a winner.

Nancy said...

Sometimes it's so hard to reach across that huge difference between a nod, and a hello. Sometimes I look at peoples faces and think: that person could be my friend...if only I knew his/her name.

Jean said...

Nancy - a new visitor... welcome!
The first step is the hardest, eh?

Hannelie said...

So romantic.
We have Grey's Anatomy from the US currenlty showing and it so reminds me of it.

Sparrow said...

Jean, I'm with you, it feels like it costs too much to take that chance, especially if you have been burned before. Good post, challenging both of us to take chances!

Jean said...

Hannelie - romantic and scary...


Sparrow - I need to work on my risk-taking!
Thank you for reading here... please come back often.

Sparrow said...

Will do, I've plugged you into my favorites, no matter what Bane says about the black background!

Jean said...

Sparrow - ha... thanks! He did admit to making an exception for me..:)